10:00 pm

I'm sitting on my terrace enjoying a beautiful evening. I take in the sight of the harbor and the mountains beyond and I'm intoxicated. I'm also taking in the smell of marijuana wafting up from below. I hope it's coming from Kiko and Danny's. I'd like to get high with them. I miss getting stoned with my friends. I'm reading an anthology of short gay essays. As well as a book on travels to Asia. I wish I could train myself to read more.

I still haven't gotten paid. There's so much that I want to get for the house. I only worked 5 hours today. I'd like to keep it that way. If I could still live off that amount. I've been thinking a lot about Bob. I tried calling him last night, but he wasn't home. I really want him to come here. Life could be so good! Well, life is so good, but it could be even better. Damn mosquitoes. I should've bought some spray. I think I'm going out with Annelies later. She leaves for 3 weeks in Holland tomorrow.