(Monday) 9:45 pm 30 March 1992

Well, today I got the big let-down. Joaquin told me that it would be at least two months before he would be able to start with the video production ideas. At least I know it's not feasible. So I have to really start thinking of other ways to earn money. I'll call Gary Ellis tonight to ask him to start looking at cameras in the States for me. And maybe I'll go to Gibraltar next Monday. I've also been thinking of asking Joaquin if I could rent his mixer and decks. Then I would only need to buy a camera. No, that's not right. I still need an edit controller and an edit deck. $6000. No problema. Shit. I wish I had the confidence in myself to make this work! It really is exciting when I think about it. But scary, too. Andre's been bummed lately because he hasn't found work yet. I know something will come through for him. Hopefully, he'll stay in the Costa del Sol area. Mette's coming back from Denmark, too! But I'm thinking that maybe I need to get out of Málaga. Go to Fuengirola or even Marbella to make this video business work. I need to find tourists with money. Of course, Sevilla is still a possibility for that. I'm getting excited again! I CAN do it! Think positively, dammit! I can't believe that I forgot to mention that I talked to Bob on Friday. It was so nice to hear his voice. He was to have an interview for the Oakland job today. Man, if he gets that, I'd love to go live with him there. After I make my millions here.