10:30 pm

I've been lying in bed trying to take a nap, but I keep thinking about being back in Detroit. I'm really looking forward to Karen's party in 2 weeks. I have 4 1/2 months of stories to tell! It's hard for me to realize that all my friends have continued on with their lives and have a lot of stories that I haven't heard. I worked six hours today. Didn't get many gifts. I met with this new partner today. He seems really cool. We've been having a lot of meetings lately without Mitchell. I wonder what's going on. I keep thinking they're going to give me the boot or something, but they still are very high on me. I just want to get beyond the Communions! I feel better after talking with this guy today. (I don't even know his name. Herbert or something.) Bob's been gone a week. It's been a long week. But now the end is in sight. Three days more. Yay! I think I'm going to stay at Annelies' when I come back. It's too late to find something now. She also has a friend who wants someone to live in his apartment for July and August. It's another possibility. So, what about my life? Where am I going? With whom? I'm so anxious to find out if Bob will be able to come back here to study for 3 - 4 months. God, that would be great. But it would be so difficult afterwards. Maybe I'd have to move to Kentucky. But who knows what will happen with this job? So much potential. It's incredible. You really do have to make a clean break from your current situation to find all the possibilities that are out there. You're blinded by so many things in your everyday life. You can't see all that awaits you beyond. When you take that one step beyond, it all unfolds in front of you. A myriad of caminos to choose from. The game of Life. Fate. Chance. I had a funny dream the other night. I was visiting BHC, talking to Donna, Scott and the guys. I asked about the Hometowns -- if Pete or Corey had won something. Donna told me they had. Then suddenly I remembered a dream I had. I had called Donna and she told me that we had won the Hometown for Best Institutional Access. She looked at me and said, "You idiot, that was real. We did win." And then I woke up. I was so confused. I couldn't figure out what was real and what wasn't. Funny stuff. Ay, ¡que tiempo! It's been raining all day. Elisabeth and I were going to go to the center tonight, but probably won't now due to the weather.